How do you tell a friend, not just any friend... but your best girlfriend that you understand that her life experience is totally different from your own and even the fact her had been sexual harassed in her youth will not be the reason for you stop wanting more for your life, because what you want (in her opinion) is simply impossible!!! How can you tell her without sounding cold or insensitive to the all situation. She never told me untill now, as if to say right now that I've had my chance, now it's time to let things settle down and look for a job and just accept life as it is.
Sorry my friend! I love you dearly, I do, you are like a sister to me you know that, but I want more out of my life, and I'm entitled to that...as you were, and still can be if you can accept that!
I would like to tell you in a very caring but firm way (if and when the time is right), that your negative experience had it's efects on the way you lived your life, since victims of childhood sexual harassed develop low self-esteem and low self respect , having no expectation of getting anything better in life so they cling to the first situation that gives them security....just like you did my dear friend. You have a beautifull family and life, but there's something inside your heart that has never healed.
I know you enjoy living, and i've allways admired your serenity and the feeling of allways knowing what your path was....now I see why. I love you and admire you just as much, or maybe even more my dearest friend.
Why didn't you tell me before? Time doesn't heal a thing if you don't work things in your mind and heart first.
Please understand me. Don't make me feel like I have no choices, and that I've burned out my chances of going after what I want just because times are difficult to everybody and I have to get what comes along ....I don't want to loose your friendship ever. In some matters we just had different life experiences, and we will allways will.
That has never come between our friendship, and as far as I'm concerned it will never be.
I love you "sister" in heart.
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